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| Is anybody still here? I've been away so long. All my plans to return to LiveJournal and InsaneJournal have blown away in the wind. I need to redo my schedule so that I spend time here in the morning, instead of wasting time on FaceBook. The thing is, Alex and Justice are on Facebook, and I love keeping tabs on them. And I've been getting lots of news about Ascendio. That's not until July, but I'm already so excited! Also, getting serious about losing weight takes a lot of time. I'm wearing a Body Bugg now, which tells me how many calories I've burned, how many steps I've taken, and how much time I've spent being "active" (mainly, exercising). And I log everything I eat on their website. Still eating quite a bit of the Nutrisystem foods though. Hard work, and so far I've only lost 8 pounds in five weeks. But it's a start. I guess the biggest news lately is that Alex has gotten her driver's license. This is going to free up a lot of time for me that I was spending chauffeuring the girls all over. She just got it last week, and I'm still getting use to the idea. It means less stress on me, but also that I'll see the girls less. Ah well, must go off and burn a few calories. Then I'm going to take a break and read a little of A Clash of Kings, which is the book the second season of Game of Thrones is based on. If you haven't seen the show, I highly recommend it. It's on HBO, but the first season is out on DVD. Warning: Adult language, adult situations, violence, nudity. | ||||||||||
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April 3rd, 2012
busyJanuary 15th, 2012
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| Nine days short of one year since my mom had her stroke. My childhood home has been on the market for six months, I've had to pay all the utilities, taxes, insurance, and upkeep - I should be relieved to let it go. But I'm so deeply sad. Today I pack. Tomorrow morning I leave for Chicago, from which I will drive to Galesburg, Illinois. I'm going to walk through the house my parents owned for 61 years one last time, then on Wednesday is the sale closing. I want to go put flowers on my parents' grave - hope I can find it in the snow. I want to eat at Steak 'n Shake. Wednesday night I have dinner with my nieces. At least they are on Facebook, so I won't totally lose them forever. But aside from them, there is no reason I should ever visit Galesburg again. There's nothing for me there but all the memories. My childhood wasn't particularly happy, as such things go, but I lived the first 20 years of my life in that house, and it's so hard to let go. The restaurants I ate at a thousand times, the church where I was baptized and where I met and married my first husband, the schools I attended. My mother believed she would be with my dad again when she died (he passed away in 1989). I hope she's right. We were so different, but she loved me unconditionally. I miss her. I knew I would have to do this someday. My mother was 94 when she died, so I should be well prepared. But I hate this. | ||||||||||||
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sadJanuary 14th, 2012
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| I'm having a very hard time keeping my spirits up this morning, but I am really trying. I don't think I have ever had a night as bad as last night except when I've forgotten my evening meds. (And I didn't. I checked twice.) I slept in short little jerks, with awful dreams. Being sick, a failure, embarrassed - I don't even know what brought them on. Having my home broken into, knowing something was wrong with Greg (my ex husband) but not able to contact him... just nasty stuff. I know I half sleep walked and that I ate during the night, but I'm not sure what or how much. The best part about this morning was waking up and discovering that nothing in those terrible dreams was true. The weather couldn't be much nastier - rain and 35°, with such heavy overcast it looks like twilight. And the cat (Fae) threw up several places this morning, including on one of the shelves where my Discworld collection resides. Luckily, nothing was damaged, and I don't think she's actually sick - she just ate too fast. I'm about two hours behind in my daily routine, which should mean skipping my morning nap. But I think I'm going to have to sleep before I can think straight about luggage and packing for Illinois. I have a hair appointment at 1:30. I wish I could cancel it, so I would have more time to sleep, but this is the last time I will have to get it done before I leave for Illinois on Monday. On the positive side, Van Halen, with David Lee Roth, is going to be performing in town on May 5th. You would have had to have known me in the 80s to understand how happy that makes me. Also, Nickelback will be here on June 23. Kathy and I already have plans to attend. Our hope is that we can both go in for tattoos that day as well. I definitely want a second tattoo, but I'm at a real loss as to what and where. I want something that symbolizes "It's love that makes a family." A heart with family isn't enough - the point is that you don't need to be physically related to be family. I really like the idea of a tattoo around my ankle, but there certainly isn't room to write that whole phrase. I need to put a load of laundry in the dryer and clean my teeth, and then I really am going back to bed. | ||||||||||||
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sleepyJanuary 13th, 2012
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| Sometimes I want so much to write a Snupin fic. There are perhaps half a dozen scenes that are so clear in my mind, that I am proud of and would probably enjoy putting down on paper. But there is nothing to go between them, and the span of time is from Half-Blood Prince until well after the War. And there is no plot and no real ending. So it's just these scenes, disconnected and going nowhere. But even if I could overcome those problems, I don't have the self-confidence or the concentration and focus to write these days. Too much RL keeps interfering. | ||||||||||
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depressedJanuary 10th, 2012
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| SEMINAR IS BROADWAY.COM'S 2011 FAVORITE This is the play I saw twice while I was in New York City, and got autographs of the entire cast including, of course, Alan Rickman. I am so pleased to see it get positive recognition. | ||||||||||||
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| Alan did a lengthy interview for the New York Times last Saturday. You can find highlights HERE, along with a link to the entire one-hour chat. | ||||||||||||
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January 9th, 2012
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| I seem to have shed the final cold symptoms today, after a zinc tablet and a pot of peppermint tea this morning. If so, I'm lucky. Cold, flu, bronchitis, and even pneumonia seem to be sweeping the country. I can name very few people who have not been sick sometime in the past six weeks with a respiratory virus of some sort. New note that is now attached to my printer: "That awkward moment when you realize you have no plans for where you are going in life, yet you know exactly what you are going to do in a zombie apocalypse." Jinxster and I are reading Deathly Hallows together, or rather she has already started reading and I will soon begin re-reading. She wanted to know how far to read before she watched Part 1 of the movie (which I discovered is almost precisely two-thirds through the book). In the course of the conversation I have given both Deathly Hallows movies what I consider to be proper subtitles: The Golden Trio Goes Camping and Rocks Fall - Everybody Dies. Ascendio is looking for suggestions for Snape-centric panels or meet-ups. My mind immediately goes to fan fiction and slash, of course, but some other ideas have been clever. For example, a panel on creative insulting. The concept of a Snape kissing booth is very popular, but I'm not interested unless they can get Alan Rickman to participate. Sorta stayed on my schedule today, considering I had a two-hour chat with Jinx. No exercise for today, but if I feel this well tomorrow I'll get out the Wii Fit Plus. Ate 1296 calories; I need to reduce the amount of sunflower seeds I eat. I see Nutrisystem has removed them from their Recommended Groceries list. I particularly need to get my calendar updated, both the Harry Potter one on the wall and the one in my iPad/iPhone. I have way too many pieces of paper floating around reminding me of various appointments and dates. And I have one week now until I leave for Illinois for the sale of mom's house. Happy Birthday to Severus Snape today. Also a full moon. Also, this Friday is the 13th of the month. Time to start getting ready for bed. | ||||||||||
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okayJanuary 8th, 2012
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| Had breakfast, did some housekeeping chores, and had a long, pleasant conversation with Dave Ratti. (Unfortunately, everyone there is sick, too.) Had a fairly decent night's sleep except for a long and unpleasant dream involving my ex-husband and money. Now, however, I feel like crap. My throat is so raw, which is what I get for talking so long. I have a hellova headache, my sinuses are burning, and I think I may be running a fever. Brewing a pot of peppermint tea now, then I'm climbing back into bed. Hope I fall asleep. My head hurts too bad to read, and I think even the sound of a DVD would make the pain worse. Sorry for whining so much. I will live and hopefully feel better after a nap. | ||||||||||
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sickJanuary 7th, 2012
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| I forgot how to filter who shows up when I read my friends list, and once I finally figured it out, I discovered that I am now totally dissatisfied with the custom groups I've made. LJ does weird things now when you try to leave a comment. I can deal with it, but... why? How is this new way of replying any better? I am apparently not the only one returning here. Is it a New Year's Resolution trend or something? If I expect to go back to reading Snupin and Snarry, I'm going to have to redo my daily schedule, cause one hour just is not going to be sufficient. I've missed so much! It's going to take hours to catch up with what is going on with some of you. And there are probably at least 500 fics out there that I regret having not read. Where do I start? I'm paranoid that most people have forgotten who I am or even that I exist. Really, I am a fairly forgettable person as such things go. What is really frustrating is that I am so tired and weak right at this moment that I don't even feel like I can proofread what I've just written. So I'm sorry for the typos, but if I'm lucky I have a cold. If I'm not lucky, I have the flu. | ||||||||||
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| When Hagrid first meets Harry, he says he flew to the island. On what? There is never any mention of him retrieving a broom or Syrius's motorcycle. Do wizards catch cold? Obviously prompted by having a cold myself. I would like to know what other Harry Potter fans think about whether Wizards and Witches can catch Muggle diseases. Not that I'm obsessed or anything, but I realized this morning that I carry a Harry Potter wallet, I have the Hogwarts shield as the lock screen on my iPhone, and I'm wearing a Slytherin t-shirt. | ||||||||||
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